Getting f****** old

Gman, you and Jan are in my homes paryers.Make the most of the time as Im sure you will 

Thanks, Bob, but we're going to the other side. The white mountains and you're probably going to Flagstaff....

I really appreciate all your guys Kind thoughts and words. 🙏 This is incredibly hard. I don't wish this on anybody. 

Everything I do lately I have very SAD thoughts. "This is the last time I will be doing this with her etc" 😭

I have so much stuff to do to prepare for this trip, but it's not going real smooth. As Jan and I are having our moments hugging and crying.... 

All the 1099 Eastern European trucks r super nasty . I actually go by how beaten my body is and  compare them to extreme physical jobs. Like pulling the biggest pipeline in the world on the hhg rig.  Brutal to work 30 + hrs straight of extreme physical laborer. No marine or navy seal to do it for a week they quit .  Or jackhammer with a 130 lb 12 hr shifts. In 3 hrs with no stopping 1/2 in into the concrete. It was like a iron rd plate a hvy wt boxer & I couldn’t believe it.  My whole body is 100% blasted . Then you get head and lung sick real bad.  7 day a week push the body doesn’t ever get time to rest.  But this will freak you out Oneida Indian tribe chief Shenandoah - the ageless leader . Was in his 80,s when he lead the warriors to defeat the empire on England .  For an agreement from president Gearge Washington that they would keep there 6 million aces in Oneida , Ny.  They got 300k acres. The ny. State then took that away & forced them to Oneida,Wi. West side of Green Bay .  The gov did fight to get back 32 aces tho.  The chief lived to be 110 yrs old . At a time men lived to be aprox 45-50 ish. 

Hey Prof, I might have missed it elsewhere, if ya don't mind me asking, how old are you? 

I read your posts all the time and man, you have been through the grinder over the years.

Hope you are well dude..

Checking in on this thread with some back issues, G-man I hope your camping trip was as peaceful and relaxing as it could be in your situation, positive thoughts sent yours and Jan's way.

Boom I've been following Pro's posts too, I figure he's probably around 137 years old. 

My back issues seem minimal after scrolling through here, nevermind.. lol.  Good luck to all you old beat to shit guys and girls out there. 

I turned 58 last week and competed in the Dragon Boat Club World Championships earlier this month in Italy. Our team did a lot of training over the last 10 months that brought a lot of aches and pains.  Now that it’s over I kinda miss the training.  I still have aches and pains even with less activity, lol.

If you are like me...

A dragon boat is a human-powered watercraft originating from the Pearl River Delta region of China's southern Guangdong Province. These were made of teak, but in other parts of China different kinds of wood are used. It is one of a family of traditional paddled long boats found throughout Asia, Africa, the Pacific islands, and Puerto Rico. The sport of dragon boat racing has its roots in an ancient folk ritual of contending villagers, which dates back 2000 years throughout southern China, and even further to the original games of Olympia in ancient Greece.

How'd you get into that? Tell us a wee bit about yourself.

A total knee replacement and two hip replacements forced me to stop competitive cycling and most of the dirt bike riding.  There’s a local club that does dragon boat and outrigger canoe that I joined last fall.  Lots of fun and good exercise.  I’m on the 6th row on the right.  Still working on perfecting the form.

Oh man, I feel so embarrassed. I hurt myself - while running - so I let all the progress slide while I healed up and I haven't been back to it. I'm ashamed to admit I might be done with running. It hurts everything from my hips to my ankles so bad that I don't want to do it. 
The good news is that I managed a 7:59 mile. I might have wanted to kill myself if I couldn't break 8:00. 

EDIT: Even so, I'd rather run than take blood pressure meds.

57  Nov 18 Scotty,s dob also , I,m 58.  I just realized I may hv gotten head and lung sick from the fires out west.  This co doesn’t go west but found a 2k lb part going to Az. To a mine near the Mexican boarder.  The ac hardly works but it smells real musty since the hurricane like storm in Az.  I cleaned the cheap foam cab filter, didn’t help. Recently I was trying to remember  the reasons why I,m doing the 1099 gig. Soo fatigued Or 1 of the biggest reasons . It was AX racing it looks like soo much fun & I can ride whoops real good. Local tracks don’t hv them anymore.  A few Mx series also , just racing money really.  

Thanks, sumdood we are still up here, camping. It has not gone as smoothly as we hope as Jan who has always been the most helpful woman I've ever known was not able to help me pack, which is quite an ordeal with an RV in AZ, as you cannot leave anything in it. 

We were scheduled to leave Friday morning and she woke up in severe pain. So I gave her a muscle relaxer a neighbor had given her, and it completely wiped her out. I was having a rough time emotionally. 

The last few days I've been feeling really fatigued and was coughing up some yellow flem, a mountain bike girl I met up here previously called  to check-in and I told her the situation and she said she would take me to an urgent care and I also got some meds.

That took a few hours, and by the time we got back to camp, Jan still had not moved out of bed. In fact, she only got up around 7pm just to have part of a hamburger I grilled for her. It's definitely getting worse and I'm not sure how much more I can take. As every time I try to help her move She screams in pain. I told her when we get home I'm gonna have to call hospice like some peoplehave recommended. She does not want to, but I do not know how to handle this situation and pain for her. 

It's truly heartbreaking 💔 😢 

Thanks for asking. 🙏

G-man my thoughts and prayers are with you and Jan.  Went through cancer and hospice with my Mom and I will tell you they were a godsend for us. They were so much help with Mom and getting us through it. They even had counseling for us if we just needed to talk to someone. It was a tough and terrible time but they did help us out a lot and made things easier for Mom also. 

Our thoughts and prayers are with Jan and you as well. G-man, be strong for Jan...

...and I know that is tough...
 

G-man, strength and prayers for Jan and yourself. I really don't know what to say but as said above, you gotta be strong for Jan. 

G-man,

I’m praying for peace for you and Jan as well. 
Stay strong. 

G-Man, We don't know each other, but reading your posts I just wanted to say stay strong, brother. I know how hard it is to do, but you will find the strength, trust me. Sending prayers to you both. I was diagnosed with cancer back in Jan. of this year, so I somewhat know from my experiences the absolute awful crap Jan is having to go through. And you as well, I saw what my wife went through taking care of me when chemo and radiation were kicking my a$$. I don't want to make this about me, just saying if you need to talk, reach out via a PM and I'll gladly be here for you. Wishing you all the best. 

G-man, here's some more Strength and Prayer to Jan and you. 

Update 

Thank you so much guys. I need all the help and support. I can get right now. The hits just keep coming on hard. Jan ended up blowing yellow flem and blood through her nose. I broke down camp as quick as I could and rushed her to emergency. Thank God I did her heart beat was 210A minute! 

They did some kind of trick where they flipped her. They got it, backed out to around 85. She is currently going to stay there a couple days so that her oxygen, we'll get better. I'm sure the high altitude did not help. 

I had to come back, to a different camp spot and set up at night the best I could. With my 2 dogs, thank God for them.

I cannot believe the urgent care doctor did not check me for covid..... he gave me some meds, and I seem to be gettin  better.

The cancer seems to be spreading pretty fast in her poor little body and this is so hard for me to see as I love this girl like no one else  I've ever loved in life..... 

I really appreciate ALL your guys kind thoughts and words, it helps a lot.   Tears 😢 have flowed a few times reading it. I know we all go through a lot of trials and tribulations and sad times in our lives so the support from guys I've never met means a lot. Thank you. 👍 

I'm sitting here feeling helpless....I only wish there's something we can do to help you and Jan. 

Be strong bud, Give your all to Jan...everything you got bud, it's tough and I'm  calling on All the boys in non moto to give strength. Love you Gary...be STRONG.

Thanks, boom, much appreciated. This is a picture in better times a 2 day mc road trip through Prescott, and this is in the historic Mining town of Jerome. We ended up going through cottonwood, Payson on the way back down to Mesa. Jan was such a good passenger on my bike all the way up highway 1 to Monterey. Etc, and I never even knew she was back there as she knew how to lean with me etc.

 She loved it as much as I did. I will cherish those memories forever. 

Recently I tried clearing up Google Photos in the cloud and there are so many memories of her and I that I did not make it very far.

 Anyway, I called her over to the computer to check out some pictures I had taken of her and even have the first ever flip phone picture I took of her by the lake, she has such a sweet smile like she always has, she can meet a stranger in the street down on his luck and smile and say something nice to him or her.

Her sister in law called Jan an angel on earth, and I cannot think of a better description. 

When I calle  her over to the computer, we started crying and I said I don't know how i'm going to live without her and she felt so bad and she said, "Gary, I would never leave you in a million years....." 

I will never forget those words and think of them every day.....😢

Feel so helpless reading all of this, my heart really hurts reading about you and Jan and the pain you are both going through.

Prayers go out to you and Jan, try and stay strong for her and always cherish the memories.

What's the phrase?...It is better to be loved and lost than to never been loved

I see so many unhappy women in their 50's, bitter at the men they have chosen to be with because their lives did not turn out the way they wanted.

It sounds like you made her pretty happy and she reciprocated that with lots of love which made you happy.

She is still in the hospital..... 😪

I've been communicating with her and she sounds better. The doctor's can release her tomorrow and I need to get her down to the valley and out of this 7200 elevation so that her poor lungs can breathe better. 

Probably the saddest vacation I can remember and I need to cut it about 8 days short..... thank God for my dogs, but they do not hold conversation very well. And my poor ol Bailey is 11 years old and losing her hind legs and has Arthritis. She used to love to swim and fetch sticks endlessly. But now, she just lays in the water and lets Maggie, do the fetching and has a forlorned look.

Not sure how much time I have left with her either? 😢I have some real dark times coming around the corner and dreading it badly. 

It's so beautiful up here, but I've never anticipated heading down to the valley and this latest heatwave, 110 like I am now, I just wanna get my Girl home safe.

Thanks again, guys for all your kind thoughts. Words and prayers. 

Sometimes pictures post sometimes they don't...

🙄

You are a good man, Gary. I  have a pretty good idea about what you're going through. 

Just know that Jan and you are in my prayers. 

G-man, you are in the best and worst times right now. We all feel for you, brother. Keep us posted. 

Thanks, Falcon. I but I wish I knew what you meant by the "best of times". Because I'm struggling. Trying not to think about what the future holds coming up is so hard. 

But you probably meant about being up here in this beautiful area and yes, you are correct it just kinda hard to enjoy it as much as I use to by myself....