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1/27/2012 6:50pm
Yes its true. Im still inhaling and exhaling (at an avg resting heart rate of around 100,) Yeah I know. Im just now starting to feel human ( a human that was put in front of a firing squad) They really did a number on me. Not to mention the Pnemonia and Cdep I got while in the hospital. They sliced me open from my chest down to.....well you know. Took out lots of parts and then cooked my insides. ...Ive been one sick pup for a few weeks. Finally I have felt pretty good the past 3 days and perhaps the light at the end of the tunnel isnt a train. My immediate focus is on my weight. The other day I was 127 lbs, a weight loss of 23lbs in 2.5 weeks. I look horrible in the mirror. I walked (hobbled) 
by a mirror with my shirt off the other day and saw myself........... Im not being funny now, I was horrifed, shocked, scared, I wasnt sure if I wanted to scream or cry. It was really sad looking. 6' 127 not a pretty picture especially with the staples and other scabs etc. I have.
"finally" found an appetite an am eating. Stomach is pretty small and sometimes eating actually makes me feel bad. So Im taking it easy. Just about up to 2k calories a day. Dehydration has been a problem but yesterday I got down 4 - 20z gatorades. . Im on a ton of pills. Antibiotics, pain, muslce relaxors and assorted pills for my plumbing problems. I gag on all the long caplet type pills and they get stuck in m throat regularly. fun. I have an Ileostomy. (temporary 2.5 months maybe) and thats on my side mid thorax. I also am still catherterized and pee in a bag. The one upside is I dont have to get up in the middle of the night to p.
Well thats it for now...........Thank you to all that shared your concern for me and Mom. Thanks to those that followed my journey. I have a number of stories to share in the coming days. Going back to see the surgeon tomorrow morning and will try pulling the Foley again (each of the 2 times theyve pulled it I couldnt pee in the alloteted time and they had to put it back in. Lil problem, apparently I have a prostrate the size of a watermellon and its in the way. There are alot of different types of pain. And I thought Id experiened most of them. But in the past 3 weeks my pain data storage has increased. I now know that many pains are Cancer specific. As is the pain of a cathertor banging against your Prostate as they try to work around it. I didnt bawl but my eyes welled up with pain the first time they did it. The next time I had the horror of having the knowledge of what I was in for. I was terrifed and rightly so. THAT SHIT HURTS.
by a mirror with my shirt off the other day and saw myself........... Im not being funny now, I was horrifed, shocked, scared, I wasnt sure if I wanted to scream or cry. It was really sad looking. 6' 127 not a pretty picture especially with the staples and other scabs etc. I have.
"finally" found an appetite an am eating. Stomach is pretty small and sometimes eating actually makes me feel bad. So Im taking it easy. Just about up to 2k calories a day. Dehydration has been a problem but yesterday I got down 4 - 20z gatorades. . Im on a ton of pills. Antibiotics, pain, muslce relaxors and assorted pills for my plumbing problems. I gag on all the long caplet type pills and they get stuck in m throat regularly. fun. I have an Ileostomy. (temporary 2.5 months maybe) and thats on my side mid thorax. I also am still catherterized and pee in a bag. The one upside is I dont have to get up in the middle of the night to p.
Well thats it for now...........Thank you to all that shared your concern for me and Mom. Thanks to those that followed my journey. I have a number of stories to share in the coming days. Going back to see the surgeon tomorrow morning and will try pulling the Foley again (each of the 2 times theyve pulled it I couldnt pee in the alloteted time and they had to put it back in. Lil problem, apparently I have a prostrate the size of a watermellon and its in the way. There are alot of different types of pain. And I thought Id experiened most of them. But in the past 3 weeks my pain data storage has increased. I now know that many pains are Cancer specific. As is the pain of a cathertor banging against your Prostate as they try to work around it. I didnt bawl but my eyes welled up with pain the first time they did it. The next time I had the horror of having the knowledge of what I was in for. I was terrifed and rightly so. THAT SHIT HURTS.
Glad to see you are still lifting that leg to kick life in the ass.
Hope you feel better soon.
G
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You're an inspiration to me.
You been through a lot of crap!
Sounds like you are in good spirits, considering...
Look forward to hearing about you getting fat and riding your bike.
Bless you bud.
Back to the surgeon tomorrow to have Foley removed. Maybe some staples removed and let her know how Im doing
Keep getting better, forcing the calories down, and fighting for the awesome future you have ahead of you. Way to go Doug!
Take things slowly my friend.
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Your a trooper. Good for you. Hoping each day gets better and better.
Good luck peeing. (never thought I'd say that online)
life:
you:
Yesterday I got the surgery report. Turns out that pic isnt too far off. They took a lot of parts out of me
Are you able to eat the same type of food you did before or has your diet changed? My wife, the vegetarian makes some awesome high calorie soft caserole type dishes if you are looking for something that will pass easily through your system.
If you need food ideas, give a shout out.
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