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This one is gonna come alittle out of left field, I apologize in advance if I waste your time on this one,
To bring you up to speed in a few sentences. Im laying on the floor of a hospital room. I have a sheet, a pillow, and a busted mattress, but tonight...this is home. To my right is my mom, shes in the hospital after loosing her kidney to a couple of cancerous tumors that were found......This is the 5th surgery shes had for different cancers, all unrealted to eachother other then 2 breast cancer surgeries....My mom is not a smoker nor a drinker. She has lived a cleaner life then most nun's, yet here she is hooked to more machines then I care to count right now..... I digress......
Two days ago I told my mom I was going to race for the California state championships, in hopes to win a title before going up a class. When I told her all she said was (and Im paraphrasing here) "If you want to go out and break your legs again, then go for it, but your paying the bill this time...."
Anyone that has a moto mom thats a tad against this sport has undoubtedly had the same speech. Its not one of discouragment, but more one out of fear of seeing her baby boy layed up in a hospital again...
After the short conversation I was livid to say the least, but after a short while I came to a small realization....My mother has never ridden a dirt bike in her life, and she has been in the hospital far more then I have. She risks almost nothing and is still in more pain then most of us on this thread have ever been in.
But yes back to my point......People ask my the reason I race and risk my life every single time I choose to throw a leg over my trusty zook.....whats "The reason"
The reason? Tommrow isnt guarnteed, no matter how much we tend to think were invincible, it can end in a flash with no rhyme or reason. I ride because I am not foolish enough to believe that I couldnt die tommrow...Everytime I ride I revel in how alive I feel.... the feeling of being 5th wide open holding on to nothing but a set of pro tapers, thats when Im living....because I know tommrow it could be gone in half a breath....whether it be from my bike, my car, or cancer....
Because if learning anything from my mom and her multiple cancer scares its this....It doesnt matter what we do, life is going to throw challenges every step of the way. Whether your a soccer mom or Evel Knievel, you never know what this life is going to throw at you. You can live the cleanest life possible and end up in a hospital 10x more then a dare devil.
In closing, I'd like to thank the few, if any, people that read this thread in its entirety. I feel that if anyone group of people in this world could relate to my plight.....it would undoubtedly be the extended family I lovingly refer to as the motocross community....
Best wishes,
Ryan Moscrop #940
To bring you up to speed in a few sentences. Im laying on the floor of a hospital room. I have a sheet, a pillow, and a busted mattress, but tonight...this is home. To my right is my mom, shes in the hospital after loosing her kidney to a couple of cancerous tumors that were found......This is the 5th surgery shes had for different cancers, all unrealted to eachother other then 2 breast cancer surgeries....My mom is not a smoker nor a drinker. She has lived a cleaner life then most nun's, yet here she is hooked to more machines then I care to count right now..... I digress......
Two days ago I told my mom I was going to race for the California state championships, in hopes to win a title before going up a class. When I told her all she said was (and Im paraphrasing here) "If you want to go out and break your legs again, then go for it, but your paying the bill this time...."
Anyone that has a moto mom thats a tad against this sport has undoubtedly had the same speech. Its not one of discouragment, but more one out of fear of seeing her baby boy layed up in a hospital again...
After the short conversation I was livid to say the least, but after a short while I came to a small realization....My mother has never ridden a dirt bike in her life, and she has been in the hospital far more then I have. She risks almost nothing and is still in more pain then most of us on this thread have ever been in.
But yes back to my point......People ask my the reason I race and risk my life every single time I choose to throw a leg over my trusty zook.....whats "The reason"
The reason? Tommrow isnt guarnteed, no matter how much we tend to think were invincible, it can end in a flash with no rhyme or reason. I ride because I am not foolish enough to believe that I couldnt die tommrow...Everytime I ride I revel in how alive I feel.... the feeling of being 5th wide open holding on to nothing but a set of pro tapers, thats when Im living....because I know tommrow it could be gone in half a breath....whether it be from my bike, my car, or cancer....
Because if learning anything from my mom and her multiple cancer scares its this....It doesnt matter what we do, life is going to throw challenges every step of the way. Whether your a soccer mom or Evel Knievel, you never know what this life is going to throw at you. You can live the cleanest life possible and end up in a hospital 10x more then a dare devil.
In closing, I'd like to thank the few, if any, people that read this thread in its entirety. I feel that if anyone group of people in this world could relate to my plight.....it would undoubtedly be the extended family I lovingly refer to as the motocross community....
Best wishes,
Ryan Moscrop #940
Good luck if you do the race
And I wish your mom a full recovery!
Good luck to your mom and you're whole family.
Trying to explain to people who have never raced what it feels like to train and beat someone who used to be faster than you, or to downside a jump that used to scare you or what it feels like to take a gate drop and pull a holeshot against 39 of your peers who want it almost as bad as you do is pointless. They will never get it. I stopped trying to explain "Why" a long time ago.
Good Luck to your moms fight and you in the CA State Championships!
The Shop
Best wishes for your mom being in the least amount of pain possible. People suffering really really sucks.
Also good luck to you in the California State Championships. Let us know how you do.
And I agree, there is nothing promised to us in this life. Ill be praying for you, your mom, and your entire family. My own family has been touched by cancer twice now, and its very tough. Stay strong man.
Good luck at GH
A quick update my mom is gettin alittle better, the doc is saying he wants her to walk a few feet tonight, and hopefully she can get some chicken broth or jello down come tommrow morning.
Thank you again for the prayers and encouragment.
Best wishes,
Ryan Moscrop #940
None of us are on this earth for long, and you never know when your time is up. If there's something you truly love and are passionate about, you gotta do it.
Being extremely cautious in all aspects of your life means not living at all.
All the best to your mom.
The reason? Tommrow isnt guarnteed, no matter how much we tend to think were invincible, it can end in a flash with no rhyme or reason. I ride because I am not foolish enough to believe that I couldnt die tommrow...Everytime I ride I revel in how alive I feel.... the feeling of being 5th wide open holding on to nothing but a set of pro tapers, thats when Im living....because I know tommrow it could be gone in half a breath....whether it be from my bike, my car, or cancer...."
That was beautiful.....I get a lot of static from most noteably my mom and the rest of my family and friends that do not know whats its like to ride, they do not understand no matter how much I try to explain this very same thing..... thank you for putting it into words.
Here's the way I feel about it- " I refuse to tip-toe through life only to arrive safely at death".
Incidently, my parents- both of whom don't care for my riding/racing activities, understand and somewhat appreciate that mentality.
Just thought Id give everyone a quick update on my mom.
What was suppose to be a day of rest was everything but....She has be riddled with concerned friends and family and has little to no sleep through out the day. Shes behind schedule on recovery to say the least. The doc was hoping for her to be walking by today but she has hardly been able to lift her head.
As of right now were looking at another 5 to 6 days additional here, which means 5 to 6 more nights on a rock hard matress in the corner of the room, but its a small price knowing my mom is under constant care.
Have a great night everyone, and again thank you for your thoughts and prayers....
Best wishes,
Ryan Moscrop #940
Pit Row
Well good luck in the state championship, and I hope your mom makes a full recovery.
Thank you for posting that, it really does put things in perspective.
I recently lost my dad to cancer and I know how heartbreaking it is to see your parents go through the pain and life changing effects of that disease.
Sending my thoughts and prayers out to your mom and family.
Hang in there and hopefully things will be better soon.
Donn
That being said you still living in Palm Desert? If so let's go moto once things settle down. I live in the desert as well.
Ive been racing since 1998, my mom then came ot every race and sometimes practice. Today she has only been to 1 race since I started racing A class 1 1/2years ago. We don't discuss motocross or my racing much today, and I sell bikes at a multi-line dealership everyday.....
Today is the start of day 3, and for the first time shes able to talk above a whisper. Were hoping to get her out of bed this morning, or to sit up right at the very least. My mom is 5'5 and weighs 108 pounds soaking wet, so this medicine is absolutley ruining her....She needs it for the pain but its making her extremley sick. Shes healing slower then hoped, so were looking at tuesday at a realease time at the very earliest....
Every day I will continue to keep you guys posted, I thank anyone and everyone who has thought positivley and said prayers for my mom, this means more to her and I then you can imagine.
Best wishes,
Ryan Moscrop #940.
P.S. I read my mom everything that has been written when shes awake, and she thanks all of from the bottom of her heart.
I am honored to know you and love you like a son. Your mom is strong and she will get through this once again. It is awesome that you are by her side. Even though she told you like it is when it comes to riding I can guarantee that she does understand your reason as hard as it gets, and it gets real hard. This I know.
I also know the feeling you describe and understand 100%! Love you kid! Let us know when we can take care of you when all is settled....
Andi ; )
I will keep you ,Don,Ali and Michael posted every step of the way.
I love you like a mom Andi,
Ryan Moscrop
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