You're super talented and a good dude. Don't let other peoples expectations, or what you think their expectations are get the best of you.
You're young and finding your way. Do you think any of us had our shit figured out at your age? Looking back I remember trying to live up to expectations, my father, my education, my career. It was real tough for me. Mentally it was tougher on me than others. At the time I thought others didn't have "problems." I thought I was the only one.
Now that I'm a little older I've realized ALL my friends have similar emotions, it's just not really talked about. Everybody has their demons. Even the champs.
From the outside looking in you're doing great, anyone would be blessed to be in your boots. You have your whole life ahead of you, it's not just the next race.
I just wanted to throw that out there, some positivity on this weekday. Best of luck Joey.